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| And I have a myspace! Because I decided not to be lazy and made one of them stupid things. It takes forever to get all the crap you need just to make the site decent.
The link is www.myspace.com/a0itsuki
Yeah. If you have myspace you should add me. | | |
| I'm a state of reform within myself. Or atleast an attempt at that..
It's very difficult, to say the least. Dx
I am trying to be more healthy in the way that I eat (can't do much about that because we're so poor.. It would be smart to save food, so it is a good thing that I don't eat very much.)
I'm trying not to eat sweets and drink something besides just soda.
I'm trying to learn responsibilities, since my irrisponsibility has followed me throughout gradeschool and so on. I am fortunate that i've passed through the years.
I'm trying to do work, not for the money, not to see my friends or possibly frencis, not to help some child labor-enthused old woman, but to prove to myself that i'm not lazy. Or atleast stop if I am.
I don't know why people call it that. I just don't really like talking to people, I don't like meeting people because nothing too much comes from it first besides my own embarrassment, that doesn't mean i'm lazy. Not everyone is going to go everywhere every single day, talking to every person they see. Especially not me, no fucking way. That's just not me, why can't he see that.
I'm trying not to think about love too much. I know I do that already, just constantly. It is kind of pathetic, but it is pretty much the only thing I think I could be satisfied with the rest of my life if I only had it..
And a recent edition to the list that I think goes along with the previous one, I'm trying not to think about sex. Sure, people think i'm not like that, that i'm a relatively good girl, but I think about it quite a bit. I'm satisfied with that because I do use my head for just about every situation, putting common sense before my own arousal..(unlike some people) But still, i'm put in situations where I hate to be such a nice person >< Such an easily controlled person.. I just want to try things (with a girl, if you haven't figured already) to get them off my mind for a little while, daydream about something else, and to be able to say that i've done some cool things.
I only ask for a few things, am I that bad of a person not to get them? Sure no one really ever gets what they want..And I can't make too much of an attempt because we're in granville. You know how picky I am about what I eat.
I'm sure there are many more things wrong with me that I need to change, but i'm not perfect and I never will be.. Imperfect, lazy, and unhealthy is probably the best anyone will see me.
Thank you if you waisted some time to read all that nonsense. If not, well, then I understand. | | |
| I first put this on DeviantArt, but I thought i'd stick it here too for the people who don't know my dA. I wrote this in about five minutes so don't mind the crap, I was in a love-ish mood >>
To me, Love is something that is always on your mind.
Love is something that puts a smile on your face, even when remembering the bad times.
It is something felt in the depth of your heart and soul.
It is something that lets you know you've become whole.
Love is something that makes you cry when you're happy.
It is something so mysterious and always makes you wonder what'll happen, whatever it can be.
It is something you cherish, you'll never want to lose.
It's something that gives to you, whatever you choose.
Love is something powerful, leaves you wanting more.
It is something precious, something you'd walk a million miles for.
And it is as delicate as the feathers of doves,
For this, I've been dreaming of..
[People will always seek the answers, like the universe Love is something that can never answer all of their questions.
Love is to be defined within oneself, and one so fortunate to sense the Caress of it's wings shall know the true meaning..] | | |
| Somethings.. I just thought I should do this because I was bored, and I wanted something to do xD I bet no one would read all this crap though.
1. I wish I wasn't always so tired.
2. I wish I could sleep as much as I want and not feel the need to get up because I feel lazy or that my head hurts.
3. I wish I still liked to eat Pizza.
4. I wish I wasn't so picky with food.
5. I wish people loved me more.
6. I wish I could realize how much people do care for me.
7. I wish kittens didn't claw / bite you.
8. I wish I could kiss someone right now.
9. I wish I could fall asleep with someone next to me every night.
10. I wish I was better at playing the guitar.
11. I wish I spoke Japanese.
12. I wish I could go to the concert to go see Dir en Grey.
13. I wish I could have a hot lesbian experience.
14. I wish I wasn't afraid to tell my dad that i'm gay.
15. I wish my family could be the happiest they could be.
16. I wish I wasn't shy.
17. I wish I was more assertive with everything.
18. I wish I was atleast a little bit friends with everyone.
19. I wish I was better looking.
20. I wish someone could have a crush on me just by looking at me.
21. I wish I wouldn't get hurt so easily.
22. I wish I wasn't naive.
23. I wish I could get my homework done.
24. I wish I was passing science and math.
25. I wish I had friends IRL that shared my interests.
26. I wish I could say "I Love You" only when I meant it.
27. I wish I wasn't so dependent on others to make me happy.
28. I wish I didn't live in Granville.
29. I wish Katrina wasn't such a bit-...big meanie. D:
30. I wish Heather was a closer friend.
31. I wish Dan would die and rot in hell.
32. I wish I could remember the happy memories and not be sad.
33. I wish I was in a (fully functioning) band.
34. I wish Heather would write some lyrics so we'd have a forking song already.
35. I wish I had an Asian friend that is a girl.
36. I wish Justin would realize what not to do when i'm angry.
37. I wish Tim would break up with Justin Marcoux.
38. I wish I had better clothes.
39. I wish I had a friend who is exactly like me. (personality)
40. I wish I didn't fall in love so easily.
41. I wish I could perform cunnilingus.
42. I wish I had more video games to play.
43. I wish I had more movies to watch.
44. I wish I had more manga to read.
45. I wish I was athletic.
46. I wish Nancy didn't think I was a loser.
47. I wish I could like Mikayla a little better.
48. I wish Mikayla wasn't such a liar and always worrying about what other people think of her.
49. I wish I could drive a car.
50. I wish I could drive a motorcycle.
51. I wish my mom made enough money that actually is worth her hard work.
52. I wish my brother finds love in his lifetime.
53. I wish my sister wasn't so much like my father.
54. I wish my teeth were better looking.
55. I wish I played a sport.
56. I wish I was healthy.
57. I wish I would never start smoking or doing drugs.
58. I wish people don't force me to have sex.
59. I wish I didn't feel as guilty sometimes.
60. I wish I could write a whole story in less than a month.
61. I wish my sides/other places were so sensitive.
62. I wish I was more pain-tolerant. (physical)
63. I wish I was stronger.
64. I wish I had a cool hair style / color.
65. I wish I had green or purple eyes.
66. I wish I was admired for no apparent reason.
67. I wish I could write meaningful lyrics.
68. I wish I could believe in myself.
69. I wish I could fight.
70. I wish I could use weapons.
71. I wish I could play 14 or more instruments.
72. I wish I could live in China/Japan.
73. I wish I could eat Sushi.
74. I wish I could be in a worldwide known movie.
75. I wish I could be gay married.
76. I wish I had two or more children.
77. I wish I could adopt an asian baby.
78. I wish I could touch/caress/kiss someone's whole body without sexual intentions.
79. I wish I could look into reflections without being scared.
80. I wish my knees/body/joints didn't crack so much.
81. I wish I didn't have stage fright.
82. I wish I could sing without my eyes watering.
83. I wish I was a guy.
84. I wish I wasn't scared of bugs.
85. I wish society wasn't so stupid.
86. I wish I wasn't anti-social.
87. I wish someone could touch/caress/kiss my body without sexual intentions.
88. I wish I had a lip piercing.
89. I wish my ears had more piercings.
90. I wish I could beat Resident Evil 4's mercenaries.
91. I wish I was smarter and could figure things out faster.
92. I wish school was fun the whole year around.
93. I wish there wasn't people who act black in my school.
94. I wish people would be nicer to Justin.
95. I wish I didn't have a chest cold.
96. I wish my skin was darker.
97. I wish I could roller blade.
98. I wish I was just a little older.
99. I wish I had tattoos.
100. I wish I was bored of this.
101. I wish constipation was non-existant.
102. I wish I could draw anatomy.
103. I wish I could be right.
104. I wish everyone was bisexual. Or realize that they are.
105. I wish my wishes came true.
106. I wish I kept track of things.
107. I wish my mom didn't have to work until 11:00 PM.
108. I wish my hips/legs/feet didn't hurt when I walk.
109. I wish my ceiling fan/light worked.
110. I wish I had more outlets in my room.
111. I wish a fire would never start in my room.
112. I wish I had a better computer.
113. I wish I could see my friends more often.
114. I wish I could kiss someone just to see if they're a good kisser.
115. I wish it wasn't so easy for me to be Jealous.
116. I wish people in my school weren't worried about reputations.
117. I wish I could make a video game.
118. I wish I could run out of wishes by now.
119. I wish there was always something for me to do, but not important enough to be able to blow it off if I wanted to.
120. I wish I was famous.
121. I wish I could go on another cruise.
122. I wish it was easier for me to tell someone I like them.
123. I wish everyone had a warning label. "Side effects- may cause drowsiness and sudden migrains if used too much."
124. I wish I could go to the lake.
125. I wish I could kiss someone as long as I wanted and it would never get boring to either of us.
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| The Family Values Tour 2006 July 27-September 20..
Featuring Korn, Flyleaf, Deftones, Stone Sour, Bury Your Dead, and Dir en grey.
September 5th they're supposed to be playing in Saratoga, NY, in the..TBA? (ocho de septiembre, mi cumpleanos~! :D Sorry...) It figures because I probably wont be able to go. And yeah.. ;3; I want to so much. To anyone who would help me go see them, i'd be their love slave for an eternity. xD Oh, and there's supposed to be their new CD (Withering to Death) and T-Shirts at Hot Topic. I must go sometime :0
Ah..Anyhow, I feel a little angsty, I better go get some sleep. In for a shitty day tomorrow. <3 | | |
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